Sad

I easily cry for things that emotional.

And 2 days ago, I had that kind of thing. The same thing I ever had when I was in high school, yet this time, it's more emotional for sure.

Two days ago, there was a match and I was so sure we would win that thing. But then it happened, and everyone in the team refused to put me in again. They insisted, I couldn't do anything. And we lose the game.

I cried. I was mad. Extremely mad. But I wasn't mad at them. I knew they did it because they care about me and I still got a lot of tournament ahead. I'm mad because I had no one to blame it on, and I'm pretty sure I will miss a lot games, especially a tournament that I've been waiting for since last year. This situation, I hate it. I hate it to the core. 

Oh I love basketball so much. And it has never been easy to be the one hobbling around and watch the others playing.

When someone told me not to think about playing and focus on the medication, I'm sad.

Now, even when I'm joking, laughing, and playing around, even when I'm happy,

I'm sad.